Tuesday, July 16, 2013

So Many Little Things

 I have no idea where to start. So many amazing (or boring) things have happened in my life, most of which I take for granted. The only things I don't take for granted are the boring ones. But I do... take for granted that my heart is beating right now and a bunch of other things I don't really have time to blab about. Anyway, "hi!". I'm Kat and November 24th is the day I turn 16 (yay! you conceited girl). I am a passionate vegetarian and I have one cat, Ashley and then of course our lab Moose. I love animals. Absolutely LOVE them. Did I already say that? Okay, well anyway.. My love of animals is part of what challenged and inspired me to go veggie. I'm the only vegetarian girl in my whole entire home and I have been doing this spinach life-style (as I like to call it) as a loner for the past year and seven months and seventeen days. Does it creep you out that I know the exact number of days? ;-) The real reason I choose to go veggie is because I feel that it's wrong to eat flesh. I mean, not only is meat physically unappealing (and that's just me) but when you come to the realization that at one your burger was a real cow who breathed air, had a pulse, heartbeat, and a mom. A mother. That's what got me. Plus, eating meat can increase your risk of all these terrible health conditions and whatnot so I just feel that a plant based diet is the safe and healthy way to go. It's not easy, let me tell you. But it's totally worth it. And for all you meat-heads out there who want to know how I get adequate protein, I will tell you and fill you in on everything else involved another time  around. I'm pretty sure you're getting tired of hearing all my vegetable talk, but I'll just end with this:

"One of the ways our culture collectively minimizes animals is by influencing our own importance. We constantly hear humans are smarter than animals. My question is always, by what standards are you measuring this intelligence? Yes, we are better at building cars and airplanes. But animals don't have a need for either. Do we say a fish is superior to a horse because he can swim? Or that a bird is ...smarter than a giraffe because she can fly? The animals of the world have all the innate intelligence they need to survive and thrive. With all our "intelligence" we have obesity, disease, war, famine, addiction, greed, depression, etcetera. It's time to view all of God's creatures as equally deserving of compassion and mercy." -Rory Freedman
 It's been so long since I came back to the blogging world. I mean, I'm not a  long lost blogger because I do maintain (although not as often as I should) a blog for my dear kitties.. but I wanted one for me too. Okay, enough about me! You're probably thinking "this girl is so egotisical". I promise you from the bottom of my heart that I am not.
Back to what I was talking about earlier... the many many things in my life I take for granted. I will say this: I don't take for granted anymore  that God's my dad and when He makes a big decision in my life that I'm not crazy about, I know in the end it will be waay better than what I could've come up with. It took me so long to come to that little conclusion of mine because I am a very strong willed girl and I always will be so deal with it, dad. No, I'm not a brat but admit to exercising my strength of will if I really feel like it. Some times I feel like that's just part of being a teen and other times I just think that illustrates my weirdness. But anyway, God showed me something I never even thought about until recently and that's that I've been sort of ignoring him these days. Have I? I mean, do I really spend more time talking about boys than talking to him?  In all fairness I don't go cmpletly boy crazy either.  You can find me somewhere in the middle. Okay, don't get me wrong: I'm not some religious fanatic who goes around praying all the time (not that that's a bad thing...) but I do think I may have been putting too much time in all the trivial things I do during the day instead of spending time with God. I don't diary or journal anymore because I feel like there should be some kind of accountability for what I'm saying. I feel like a diary is personal so I'm not sharing what I write in it with anyone. However, if what I'm talking about  really is some good stuff than why not be public about it? And honest. So so honest. Whatever I blog about will be the complete truth. I am a kind person so I won't be all offensive and matter of fact, but I will stay true. That's my promise and now I feel good about something!  So being honest here it feels better to admit that I'm a Christian and I don't always live up to that stereotype of "praying without ceasing" or "be angry and sin not" or any other religious stuff I should participate in more often. But I'd like to think that's all part of being human, right? I mean, we all are sinners but as I like to say "If God didn't put up with me who would?" That pretty much sums it up for me. I've been trying really really hard to be a better person and my theory is to live every day in today. I also want to be more spiritual. There have been some things in my life that should have brought me closer to God (and they did eventually!)but sometimes I get so wrapped up in all the tough things I've gone through and I just feel so selfish. It's like, Look around, Kat! There are kids in Africa dying and I'm crying over this...  Don't do that! Another thing, I haven't always been a Christian (while I'm going to keep my commitment to be honest I might as well). My mom and Dad believe in God naturally, and when I was a kid they'd read me the story of Noah's ark. Back then I feel like I was more connected to God than a few years ago. I wasn't afraid to tell others about Jesus and I didn't care what anyone thought of me. But when I got older I started feeling sort of empty and that's when it occurred to me that going to church doesn't make me a Christian. When I really sat down and thought about it, I came to the conclusion that I can't do anything on my own (that's not to suppress my Independence attitude). Since then, God has been my best friend. He's there for me when I cry and when I'm being bratty He sets me straight. I had to learn the hard way that boys aren't worth it. And so far, I feel so much better. Proverbs 3:5-6  basically proves this, thing I posted on my facebook some weeks ago:

I've been thinking a lot lately about all this deep stuff... my life, my relationship with Jesus and the friendships I have developed with so many amazing people that I'm excited have in my life! This is what I've come up with. I am going to face situations that I don't want to be in but the bottom line is one way or the other I'll find myself in it. So I can choose to look at it as a negative thing or make something positive out of it, and I will be honest I have seriously been struggling with that concept. I really admire those who are in such devastating situations but stay strong and don't complain! I want to be like that so bad.
To sum everything up, at the end of the day no matter how hard I try I'm still this little sinner in a big world. If I feel alone, I have my Dad to talk to. And Jesus is always there for me, always! Now don't forget I'm still a GIRL and I will think and talk about boys but somehow God still loves annoying little miss  me.